Ok....so my poor husband....who is still in town....on a boat...not home....delayed from his departure because of broken boat things....but not with his family???? ....................read my blog last night when he was trying desperately to get this darn trojan hourse out of my computer!?
Yes it's true....he didn't know about some of the fears I have or the issues that I anticipate or am experienceing right now. I was trying to spare him any extra work in his last moments with us. And....because of my need to blog what is on my mind.... in his last hours yesterday he spent his time out looking at Ben's bike, teaching me how to fix the dog line....tracking the bike rack package...adding extra protection software to my crazy computer.....and well....you get me right?! Not what I had planned? Maybe should have posted that blog a day later right? So now I feel like a big shmuck! Not because he made me feel this way....I mean....I just am kind of a big shmuck?!
And I want to say this for all to hear!! LOUD!!! By no means do my feelings, anxieties and fears about deployments reflect on Steve's ability or any lack there of...to accomplish things around this house!! :) Heck...he could fix everything that has ever broken....and I would still fear that the second he walks out the door, our rental house will need tending too, or our credit cards will be compromised....etc. etc. Know what I mean? I am just scared. Scared in the short term about the issues and problems that I am able to anticipate....but no less scared as a whole if they were all to disappear right now! And like I said before...one week from now...this will lessen by leaps and bounds. It is just how "I roll" when he deploys?!
Steve, you do your share around here and THEN SOME! And a big emphasis on the "and THEN SOME!" This is just me....having issues....not you being a big old slacker!!! ha ha ha ha!! :) Go away knowing that all is fine. Everyone will have a great summer....we will fix problems and ignore problems based on the overall need rating! WE will make it all work - we will miss you.....we will wish you were here with us...but we will survive. And we will survive because of all you do for us! And because you are coming home in not that long! Just do your job well and have as much fun as you can in a tin can under the water!! :) Accomplish great things...and come home ready to play!
In conclusion....STEVE IS NOT A SLACKER!!! :) hee hee hee!! :)