Sunday, November 14, 2010

Two years ago....

Two years ago I received our Travel approval...and this was all we knew about our little man!

And in just a will be two years from the day that I finally had our baby!

And somehow...two years have just flown by? And most days I barely remember two years ago? Where did the time go! Thank goodness I have these days to sit and remember where we were then...and how far we have come!

Some day I will share it all with him! The good the bad the ugly and the awesome! Until then...I'll just remember it all....each year that passes....the past that lead to now! How lucky we are!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Forever in my heart!

Just about two years ago - less a week or so - I received my travel approval to go to China and get our little Joshua Song. In many ways that feels like a lifetime ago, and in other ways if feels like just days ago that I took the journey.

Steve was gone and I would travel alone. Probably have not had that much fear in me at any one time in my entire life. I'm sure there will be greater in years to come. But suffice it to say, as of today...that was and remains, the most stressed and the most fearful that I had ever been.

Who would I meet, would I truly be alone for three weeks? Would I know what to do and where to go? So uncertain and so little control.

But those times is where faith becomes the most necessary part of your being. I did have faith. Faith that I was on the right path, and that I was heading the perfect direction. Faith that it would all work out as it needed it was supposed to.

And so I got on the plane. Fast forward a few days and I was able to realize that faith had put me just where I needed to be. In China, about to receive our baby...and sharing dinner with some amazing people! I knew they were amazing from day one. Friends. And in very short order became a part of my heart that will stay with me for all time!

We struggled together, laughed together, played together and then did that all over again each day! How would I have done this trip without these awesome people? Who the heck knows. But what I do know is that I had faith going into this trip and these people were put in my life for a reason! I thank them for the support and love they gave me two years ago. And I thank them for still loving me and my family today!! And most of all for allowing me to share in their family and to know them as they grow together!!

I was lucky enough to spend the day with two of these special people...and their three awesome kids!

After hours of talking, playing, eating, one really wanted to part ways! Especially ME! Felt like 10 min - not long enough...but cherished so very much!

Josh asked me after just one hour of playing with Leah...."I don't want Leah to go home mom...does she have to go home?" Could he possibly remember that she was his first friend? It sure felt like he could!

Ben and Eli played wii football for an amazingly long time. Will, Josh and Jeremy went from thing to thing...just enjoying the day!

Great time! Thank you Smith family...for making my month!! We love you ALL so very much!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Life lesson number 2002

Kyle decided this year that he wanted to make his own costume. He needed a large sheet and scissors and a sharpie marker. He wanted to be a home made ghost. And he was.

He was so proud! I explained that I should probably hem it up a bit so he did not trip. And he said..."No mom...I want it to drag on the ground. Ghosts drag and they don't have feet. I need to hide my feet!

I told him we should maybe find a way to keep it one place on his face so that he could see. He mom...ghosts don't wear hats or necklaces?!

And so I warned him of the possible hurdles of being a ghost, and he told me he understood what I was saying...but that none of it mattered. I even offered to buy a ghost costume at the store that might hold up a bit better. He did not care...he was being a ghost! And he was being a ghost HIS WAY.

As you can tell by the below all started out great!! He was so happy and proud. When he tripped....he just stood back up. When he could not see...he simply adjusted the garb!

....and then....

The dreaded event. Not a hurdle that I even anticipated?

His friend...our neighbor (but not somone that he had seen this night before now)...walked up to Kyle (after we had hit but three houses for candy...and had the whole neighborhood left to loot)...and said, "Kyle that is the dumbest costume I have ever seen!"

Oh went from great to terrible in a matter of three seconds.

I think had Kyle just worn a purchased costume, or one that I had made for him, he would have taken this comment in stride. Valued difference of opinion and kept on the quest for candy. But that was not the case. More than ever, a boy who went out there on a limb....embraced different and uniqueness.... needed positive affirmation from the masses. This little boy is his friend, and KYle CARED about his opinion.

Our friends at the Halloween party could not say enough about how great his costume was! He was on cloud nine up to this moment! But a fragile ego mixed with a not so nice comment ended his night just the same.

He quit trick or treating. He walked home. He took off his costume and I found it laying on the floor by the trash can inside the house. We tried talking to him, we tried convincing him...but nothing. He was done. Broke our hearts. Steve got him to stop at a few random houses on the way home just to get a bit of candy...but even that was a struggle. (He got all that was left in our own basket at the end of the night and somehow has more candy than all the other three? Hmmmm..) But just the same, it was a sad lesson to learn from a creative gesture and independent ideas.

The fact that it was beside the trash can and not IN the trash can tells me that he was not quite sold on the failure. Or that he was afraid to throw it away for fear I would yell at him for throwing away a perfectly good costume? Who knows. I'll go with the first thought!!

This is our ghost!
Photo taken in the back yard with friends before we started our trick or treating festivities!

Ben and Kyle...looking scary and happy!

This was Kyle leaving the driveway of our neighbors house. Just one house into the night...before the comment was made.

More pics of whole crew!

Sorry Kyle that you had to learn about disappointment. You learned that sometimes no matter how hard we try and how good our ideas may be...there will always be someone that will see it differently. But what I do hope for the end...once he can get some distance from the situation and see it more clearly - is that he learns that individuality is key, taking comfort in our own ideas and believing in them is all we have, and other peoples opinions are just not always shared by the masses! You did good buddy...keep on doing your own thing!! Your own thing - ROCKS!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

This is how we roll!!

Colby's lightning McQueen car finally died!! It has been with the neighborhood for over 4 years. It was purchased at the same time as several other motorized vehicles. At least 8 others used to roam the cul-de-sac together. No others lasted as long as the McQueen rider!

And so it happened....the end of an era. But how to celebrate the life of a good motorized vehicle? Well...on our street....we run over it with cars!! I don't have all the photos, the camera was an afterthought because I didn't want to miss the fun.

First, Mr. Paul hit it with his car and sent it flying down the street. 15 or so kids stood on the side cheering!! Then Mr. Scott got in his car and did more of the same!! But you was still in one piece. So Mr. Steve finished the fun by riding his monster truck jeep over Lightning McQueen....Now every kid in the neighborhood was there to scream and laugh and cheer!

And now it is no more.

Most of us have parts in our trash to go out this week. And Justice kept the wheel to remember it by!!

Thanks lightning...for your years of fun...and for the best low class fun I have had in years!! That was awesome!

That's how life goes....


We went to Starbucks today. And this is how it went?

Josh: I want muffin mom (points to blueberry muffin)

Me: Ok buddy and Will what do you want?

Will: Two pink donuts.

Me: Sounds great....and I purchase the breakfast fun.

(we walk to the was...once seated and hooked...they could eat)

Me: Here you go guys!! Enjoy...and I hand out the bags!

Josh: Mom...I don't want this...I want chicken. (crying like I burned him with a hot poker)

Me: can't get chicken at can only get chicken at McDonald's.

Josh: (stops crying immediately) Let's go to old McDonald's now.

Me: We can't Josh...they only serve breakfast at breakfast time....there is no chicken anywhere right now.

Josh: But I don't want chicken!! (and the end of the world crying starts again)

Me: They Josh...what do you want!

Josh: (Sobbing) I want a muffin with blueberries!!!

Me: OK...then here. And I re hand him the bag.

Josh: Stops crying yet again in a fraction of a second...tears all over his face...snot running down to his chin. And he says, "Yeah...thank you mom!" And with that he starts eating?

Me: ????????????????????????????????????????